Facing Down 'Bloody Body' Syndrome

First off, does everyone know what BBS is?? A scientific explanation as designed by me is when you know you can get seriously hurt (very bloody and broken) in some event because you HAVE been hurt (very bloody and broken) in that event in the near and distant past. Your mind preys on you and brings up all sorts of 'what ifs' and overtakes your very being. Then, to lump in your age (I'm over 50 and not going to tell how much over) and your declining equilibrium, well, bad thoughts start to happen.

So, now that our move is over and done and things are settled, the frickin' rain has stopped, I was ready to start some serious riding. Now, I'm a member of the Appaloosa Horse Association and they offer a Trail and Distance Riding thingamajig. I was a member over a year ago but due to my job, never got to get very far, plus my crabby mare had a really bad absess, so nothing much happened.

Welp, I rejoined today. Woo-hoo!! This morning I saddled up my spotted crank and rode for a bit. I'm telling ya, I did have some thoughts while saddling. Oh, 'what if, what if, what if' till I drove myself nuts. What is I can't reach the phone, what if I get knocked out (that has happened several times over the years), what if I knock some teeth out, etc.

Finally, it was like, "Oh, cowgirl up and get on the friggin' horse!"...and I did. We had a great ride and the feeling afterward was a rush! Since it had been about 3 weeks since I rode (or feels that way) I didn't go far this morning but tomorrow, I am heading a bit farther out. Even my mare was wanting to go on, not back to the barn!! She seemed to want to head down the two-track trail.

So, by facing down my irrational fears, I had a great time this morning plus I can now win things from the App club for forking my darlin'.

I feel extra good because I faced down a major fear. Almost nothing like it!!

Now, you guys get out there and ride!!